Amityville Horror, the

Lookout, The (2007) IMDB rating: 7.40 Plot: An admired high school hockey player (Joseph Gordon-Levitt) with a bright future foolishly takes a drive in the night with his girl friend and two other friends with his headlights off with devastating results. The former athlete is left with a brain injury that prevents him from remembering many things for extended periods of time. To compensate, he keeps notes in a small notebook to aid him in remembering what he is to do. He also lives with a blind friend (Jeff Daniels) who aids him. Obviously, with the mental incapacitation, he is unable to have meaningful work. Thus he works as a night cleaning man in a bank. It is there he comes under the scrutiny of a gang planning to rob the bank. The leader (Matthew Goode) befriends him and gets him involved with a young woman (Isla Fisher) who further reels him in. After they get close and after reeling him in with his own failures, the bank plan unfolds. Confused but wanting to escape his current existence, he initially goes along with the scheme. After realizing he is being used, he attempts to stop the robbery, which of course immediately goes awry. Bruce McGill and Alberta Watson also co-star as the young man’s parents, who still search for the person that was there before the tragic crash.

Actors: Gordon-Levitt Joseph,Daniels Jeff,Goode Matthew,McGill Bruce,Di Zio Sergio,Huband David,Dunham Greg,Kelly Morgan,Berg Aaron,Crime,Drama,Thriller,

places to lookout in between the way of delhi to vaishno devi or near places ?

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1. Kuruskhetra –120 km from Delhi –mahabharata fame –by road or by train

2. Pathankote –200 km before Jammu and 100 km from Jallandhar cantt –Dalhousie ,Dharamsala,Jwaliji,Chintpurni are with in 150 km distance
asimboral | Feb 09, 2010

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Hello There,
greetings of the day

Kurukshetra, Brham sarovar and vaishno devi are are the best pilgrimages for Hindus.

http://www.tcindia.com/

Tcindia | Feb 10, 2010

Barbie as Rapunzel (2002) IMDB rating: 5.10 Plot: In this contemporary twist on the classic fairy tale, Barbie (voiced by Kelly Sheridan) uses the power of her own creative energies to paint her way out of the confines of a castle keep and save her prince from the nefarious clutches of Gothel, the evil witch (Anjelica Huston). It’s a charming animated tale that finds Barbie far from the sandbox and in a fantasy land with rabbits and dragons for friends and a chance at romance.

Actors: Corlett Ian James,Corlett Ian James,Hildreth Mark,Kaye David,Kaye David,Kelamis Peter,Kelamis Peter,Roberts Russell,Gaze Christopher,Klassen Terry,Klassen Terry,Animation,Family,

where can i download the songs from the barbie as rapunzel movie???

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Go to http://music-download-center.info

Table | Nov 18, 2007

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go to limewire and download it
if you want it in a portable devide, you have to buy it
Jong Wook W | Nov 17, 2007

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Try the best place to download songs:
http://download-songs.info
Good luck!
Best | Nov 18, 2007

Baader Meinhof Complex, The (2008) IMDB rating: 7.40 Plot: Germany in the 1970s: Murderous bomb attacks, the threat of terrorism and the fear of the enemy inside are rocking the very foundations of the yet fragile German democracy. The radicalised children of the Nazi generation lead by Andreas Baader, Ulrike Meinhof and Gudrun Ensslin are fighting a violent war against what they perceive as the new face of fascism: American imperialism supported by the German establishment, many of whom have a Nazi past. Their aim is to create a more human society but by employing inhuman means they not only spread terror and bloodshed, they also lose their own humanity. The man who understands them is also their hunter: the head of the German police force Horst Herold. And while he succeeds in his relentless pursuit of the young terrorists, he knows he’s only dealing with the tip of the iceberg.

Actors: Bleibtreu Moritz,Liefers Jan Josef,Erceg Stipe,Schmidt Niels-Bruno,Kiefer Vinzenz,Licht Simon,Schilling Tom,Lommatzsch Daniel,Blomberg Sebastian,Dilssner Eckhard,Action,Biography,Crime,Drama,History,

Finding a location in Berlin?
Hi

Is anybody Local to Berlin; or knows Berlin very well? I am travelling there in a few weeks and need to track a location down.

Ive seen the film "The Baader Meinhof Complex" and would like to see Ulrike Mienhof’s gravestone.
Ive been on Google Maps and tracked the location to:

Heilig-Kreuz-Kirchhof, Mariendorf,
Cemetery, which I believe is North of Tegel Airport.
Ive found U-Bhan stations around the area although they look a distance away. Does anybody know if the cemetery is in realistic walking distance; and how long it would take to walk from the nearest U-Bhan Station?

Also is the cemetery large; is her grave easy to locate. Ive tracked down its in "Zone A"? Does anybody know where that is in the cemetery?

Any help would be much appreciated
BT
UK

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In reality Ulrike Meinhof is burried in the city of Stuttgart not in Berlin so you won’t find her gravestone there.
The burial was very controvers at the time the major of Stuttgart defended the right of the terrorists to get a burial place and said that with the dead even terrorists aren’t to be considered as public ennemies anymore

Georg | Oct 26, 2009

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Just use Google earth or Google maps
Randi/Retarded Turkka | Oct 29, 2009

Mutants (2008) IMDB rating: 2.80 Plot: The greedy Braylon owns the Just Rite Sugar Company and has hired the unethical scientist Sergei to conduct an experiment to make an addictive sugar stronger than heroin or nicotine to increase his sales. Sergei uses invisible people as test subjects, like beggars, addicted junkies and illegals, in the clandestine Shadow Rock Mill. When Braylon’s men mistakenly kidnap Ryan, who is the brother of his secretary Erin and son of his security chief Griff, and Hannah, the youngster becomes an important non-contaminated subject. However, Erin receives some mysterious e-mails from the unknown Cinderella with a picture of Ryan and a hint that he might be in Shadow Rock and together with her father, they decide to seek out Ryan.

Actors: Ironside Michael,Herthum Louis,Senzamici Tony,Bauer Steven,Austin Randy,Church Austin B.,Denicola Derrick,Finberg Ron,Fontana Joe,Gill Marc,Jones Jodie,Keith Matt,Langhart Drew,Leduc Armando,Michaelson Caleb,Action,Sci-Fi,

famous 80s costume party!?
ok so im going to an 80s costume party, thing is it has to be famous.
the problem with that is the 80s was mostly male dominated and there arnt many female icons of the 80s.
of course there is Madonna and Cindy lauper, but thats what everyone else is coming up with.

i want someone who has a iconic look that people will know who i am!

it can be film, music or cartoon!

i was going to go as April from teenage mutant turtles, but its proving impossible to find a yellow jumpsuit.

i thought maybe going as smurfett but that involves painting myself blue and that could get messy!

HELP!!!!!!!

Thanks

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Go with April. Instead of looking for a jumpsuit find yellow pants and shirt. It doesn’t have to look exactly like hers, just the yellows with the 80s hair would get the point across. If your worried about different shades of yellow, you could get white and dye them. Good Luck.

cthulhumistress | Feb 07, 2010

Creating a World: Aeon Flux (2006) IMDB rating: 5.30 Plot: The sci-fi actioner is set 400 years in the future, when disease has wiped out the majority of the earth’s population except for one walled, protected city-state, Bregna, ruled by a congress of scientists. The story centers on Aeon Flux(Theron), the top operative in the underground ‘Monican’ rebellion, led by The Handler(Frances McDormand). When Aeon is sent on a mission to kill a government leader, she uncovers a world of secrets…

Actors: Csokas Marton,Miller Jonny Lee,Postlethwaite Pete,Kinski Nikolai,Joseph Paterson,Huber Thomas,Liu Weijian,Queck Maverick,Action,Sci-Fi,Adventure,Thriller,

How does one get into the animation field?
I want to be able to create my own cartoons eventually. I love the unique worlds such as Cowboy Bebop, or Aeon Flux… and I want to know how to get a job like that.

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I graduated from art college several years ago. AAC in the bayarea. If you don’t know anyone who’s in animation field, you can try to present your idea and art work to the teachers in art school. Most of teachers in my school are not professional educator but professional artist. Such as most teachers who is teaching animation may from the big film company. Some of them fly from LA to give us class everyweek.
I thought you may start from their if you go some good stuff. But if you really got some great stuff, be careful with who you deal with. We had sign the contract that all our works belong to school when we were. I have known there some teachers keep student’s idea become their own…

jenny | Mar 24, 2006

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Look into getting enrolled in a graphic arts class in a college or school, and take it from there.
Harley | Mar 24, 2006

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Do a course in Animation…. If your drawing is very very good, then you stand a good chance.
nice_libra_guy | Mar 24, 2006

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If you have the love and obviously talent you can!
Good animation takes countless time and effort.
Be consistant do not drift in to other things in that area
You can professionalize abything if you just keep on keeping on!

Goodluck, animation is good fun work
bringin life to a character is certainlya great feeling of giving birth.
psalm | Mar 24, 2006

Balibo (2009) IMDB rating: 7.10 Plot: As Indonesia prepares to invade the tiny nation of East Timor, five Australian based journalists go missing. Four weeks later, veteran foreign correspondent Roger East is lured to East Timor by the young and charismatic Jose Ramos-Horta to tell the story of his country and investigate the fate of the missing men. As East’s determination to uncover the truth grows, the threat of invasion intensifies and an unlikely friendship develops between the last foreign correspondent in East Timor and the man who will become President. BALIBO is a political thriller that tells the true story of crimes that have been covered up for over thirty years.

Actors: Phillips Nathan,Winter Mark Leonard,Gameau Damon,Grantley Gyton,Isaac Oscar,LaPaglia Anthony,Sonkkila Paul,Winter Mark,Wright Tom,Thriller,

What is meant by "came with a lot of baggage"?
The full sentence is:

I was only 14 when my brother Tony was killed. After that people would say

Vengeance (2006) IMDB rating: 7.60 Plot: A young police officer, a local guide and his daughter follows the trail of a prison escapee, Nasor, into a mysterious forest with many hidden secrets, one of which directly relates to the death of Nasor’s father at the hands of the father of the officer. As the group ventures deeper into the forest, the eerie realm unleashes its spirits unto the intruders, killing them one by one. Still intent on bringing Nasor to justice, the officer relentlessly pursues the criminal in a race against time and the unseen forces of the ancient forest.

buy and download Vengeance

Actors: Na Songkhla Chalad,Sang-aakaat Sorachai,Tangkaprasert Watchara,Action,Horror,Thriller

How long is eternal in the bible ? Is Sodom & Gomorrha still on fire?
Jude 1:7
7 Even as Sodom and Gomorrha, and the cities about them in like manner, giving themselves over to fornication, and going after strange flesh, are set forth for an example, suffering the vengeance of eternal fire.
johnno
Sorry I tend to do that.

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"Eternal" is as long as you believe it.
gutbucket | Feb 09, 2010

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The eternal fire is God.
C Y | Feb 09, 2010

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I believe Jude 1:7 is saying they are still burning in hell like crispy sausages.
imrod | Feb 09, 2010

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There are very few things in the bible that are truly eternal. Eternal is often used in bible times to explain things that took a long time (years, or decades, or even a century) and there was no word for these things. Not even Hell will be on fire forever, it will be destroyed at the end of time when God comes for his people and finishes off the Devil. Hell seemed like forever since it began burning after Lucifer’s fall and is still burning now.

Speaking of Hell, watch this video on youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7yH2DXAGN fQ
Jake | Feb 09, 2010

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Eternal is eternal, it doesn’t get more eternal than that.
11:1 | Feb 09, 2010

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It was probably a typo on God’s side
He meant "internal fire", which is a kind of gas produced in the lower intestines after eating alot of garlic in ones food
Wrong time-place context | Feb 09, 2010

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Hey Lone D.. that’s getting technical !
johnno | Feb 09, 2010

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I’m not sure. I don’t live in that area.
Buddy | Feb 09, 2010

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In that verse, the eternal fire is a reference to hell.
And it means eternal, in the accepted sense of the word. Never ending.
John F | Feb 09, 2010

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1) Take the dictionary
2) Open it to eternal
3) Read
The Moogie-Woogie seer. | Feb 09, 2010

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You can buy topical creams to ease the burning of Sodom.
Dogstar, Siriusly speaking | Feb 09, 2010

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I see you have been reading your Bible again, Dissenter. Good for you!
Eternal means eternal. However, in this verse Sodom and Gomorrah (the actual cities) are being used as an example of eternal hellfire, which is where all the people who were destroyed in those cities will be, in the lake of fire after the White Throne Judgment–eternally.
byHisgrace | Feb 09, 2010

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it’s referring to second death, which comes after the Judgment.

Matthew 10:15 (KJV)
Verily I say unto you, It shall be more tolerable for the land of Sodom and Gomorrha in the day of judgment, than for that city.

As it is written:

Hebrews 9:27 (KJV)
And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment:
Suffice to say… | Feb 09, 2010

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It’s not definite. It’s like one of us saying "If nuclear war breaks out the world will burn for eternity." We both know it wouldn’t. Sooner or later the fires will die out. It’s just an expression to add emphasis to the "wrath" displayed in the verse. I know several think it’s refering to hell, but oddly enough you won’t find the Christian version of hell in the old test… because it happens to come from pagan myths (Hades being one of the main ones). Hell, in hebrew, is sheol. Which loosely translates to "a place of gloom". It is where all the dead go and is usually said to be the grave itself. And we all could easily connect "place of gloom" to a gravesite. Especially if we know the person who’s going into it.
Robin | Feb 09, 2010

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For as long as there is a mind to remember. When it is totally forgotten and lost to records or evidence that "it" existed, then logically "eternity for that certain thing or event" has ended.
Sodom and Gomorrah is already in ruins and gone underneath the sea and sands through times; it is still written however in the Book that keeps on circulating.
Rallie Florencio C | Feb 09, 2010

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The location of the ancient cities of Sodom & Gomorrah are now beneath the Dead Sea, so that pretty much answers the question of whether or not they are still on fire.

The Bible often uses fire as a symbol of total and complete destruction, which is logical as fire does completely destroy. Eternal fire would symbolize eternal destruction. It’s sure not hell as death and hell are going to be completely destroyed according to Revelation 20:14. They will be thrown into the lake of fire, which means the second death. Those are the Bible’s words, not mine," it means the second death" nonexistence with no hope of resurrection.
Wendi888 | Feb 09, 2010

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Very good.

This scripture is the key to understand what eternal fire means. Clearly the cities are not on fire any longer; however, the destructive effects of that fire surely remains for all eternity. In this way we have a harmonious teaching that agrees with the OT in that the wicked shall be destroyed for all eternity. Of course, we do know that each individual in Sodom and Gomorrah will have their day, the case, up before the judge, Christ. Thus those deemed righteous enough to be resurrected shall receive such.
Fuzzy | Feb 09, 2010

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Jude 7, KJ:

Baader Meinhof Complex, The (2008) IMDB rating: 7.40 Plot: Germany in the 1970s: Murderous bomb attacks, the threat of terrorism and the fear of the enemy inside are rocking the very foundations of the yet fragile German democracy. The radicalised children of the Nazi generation lead by Andreas Baader, Ulrike Meinhof and Gudrun Ensslin are fighting a violent war against what they perceive as the new face of fascism: American imperialism supported by the German establishment, many of whom have a Nazi past. Their aim is to create a more human society but by employing inhuman means they not only spread terror and bloodshed, they also lose their own humanity. The man who understands them is also their hunter: the head of the German police force Horst Herold. And while he succeeds in his relentless pursuit of the young terrorists, he knows he’s only dealing with the tip of the iceberg.

Actors: Bleibtreu Moritz,Liefers Jan Josef,Erceg Stipe,Schmidt Niels-Bruno,Kiefer Vinzenz,Licht Simon,Schilling Tom,Lommatzsch Daniel,Blomberg Sebastian,Dilssner Eckhard,Action,Biography,Crime,Drama,History,

81st Academy Awards : Take Your Picks – Early Predictions?
Best Picture

- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button
- Frost/Nixon
- Milk
- The Reader
- Slumdog Millionaire

Best Actor

- Richard Jenkins "The Visitor"
- Frank Langella "Frost/Nixon"
- Sean Penn "Milk"
- Brad Pitt "The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button"
- Mickey Rourke "The Wrestler"

Best Actress

- Anne Hathaway "Rachel Getting Married"
- Angelina Jolie "Changeling
- Melissa Leo "Frozen River"
- Meryl Streep "Doubt"
- Kate Winslet "The Reader"

Best Supporting Actor

- Josh Brolin "Milk"
- Robert Downey Jr. "Tropic Thunder"
- Phillip Seymour Hoffman "Doubt"
- Heath Ledger "The Dark Knight"
- Micheal Shannon "Revolutionary Road"

Best Supporting Actress

- Amy Adams "Doubt"
- Penelope Cruz "Vicky Christina Barcelona"
- Viola Davis "Doubt"
- Taraji P. Henson "The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button"
- Marisa Tomei "The Wrestler"

Best Director

- David Fincher "The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button"
- Ron Howard "Frost/Nixon"
- Gus Van Sant "Milk"
- Stephen Daldry "The Reader"
- Danny Boyle "Slumdog Millionaire

Best Adapted Screenplay

- Eric Roth "The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button"
- John Patrick Shanley "Doubt"
- Peter Morgan "Frost/Nixon"
- David Hare "The Reader"
- Simon Beaufoy "Slumdog Millionaire"

Best Original Screenplay

- Courtney Hunt "Frozen River"
- Mike Leigh "Happy-Go-Lucky"
- Martin McDonagh "In Bruges"
- Dustin Lance Black "Milk"
- Andrew Stanton, Jim Reardon and Pete Docter "WALL-E"

Best Animated Feature

- Wall-E
- Kung Fu Panda
- Bolt

Best Visual Effects

- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button
- Iron Man
- The Dark Knight

Best Art Direction

- Changeling
- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button
- The Dark Knight
- The Duchess
- Revolutionary Road

Best Cinematography

- Changeling
- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button
- The Dark Knight
- The Reader
- Slumdog Millionaire

Best Sound Mixing

- WALL-E
- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button
- The Dark Knight
- Slumdog Millionaire
- Wanted

Best Sound Editing

- The Dark Knight
- Iron Man
- Slumdog Millionaire
- Wanted
- WALL-E

Best Original Score

- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button
- Defiance
- Milk
- Slumdog Millionaire
- WALL-E

Best Original Song

- Down To Earth "WALL-E
- Jai Ho "Slumdog Millionaire
- O Sayo "Slumdog Millionaire

Best Foreign Feature

- The Baader Meinhof Complex
- The Class
- Departures
- Revanche
- Waltz With Bashir

Best Costumes

- Australia
- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button
- The Duchess
- Milk
- Revolutionary Road

Best Film Editing

- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button
- The Dark Knight
- Frost/Nixon
- Milk
- Slumdog Millionaire

Best Make-Up

- The Dark Knight
- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button
- Hellboy II: The Golden Army

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Here are my predictions:

Best Picture – Slumdog Millionaire

Best Actor – Sean Penn "Milk"

Best Actress – Kate Winslet "The Reader"

Best Supporting Actor – Heath Ledger "The Dark Knight"

Best Supporting Actress – Penelope Cruz "Vicky Christina Barcelona"

Best Director – Danny Boyle "Slumdog Millionaire

Best Adapted Screenplay – Peter Morgan "Frost/Nixon"

Best Original Screenplay – Dustin Lance Black "Milk"

Best Animated Feature – Wall-E

Best Visual Effects – The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button

Best Art Direction – Changeling

Best Cinematography – The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button

Best Sound Mixing – The Dark Knight

Best Sound Editing – WALL-E

Best Original Score – Slumdog Millionaire

Best Original Song – Down To Earth "WALL-E

Best Foreign Feature – Waltz With Bashir

Best Costumes – Australia

Best Film Editing – The Dark Knight

Best Make-Up – The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button

robish27df | Jan 30, 2009

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Zack J | Jan 30, 2009

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Best Picture

- Slumdog Millionaire

Best Actor

- Sean Penn "Milk"

Best Actress

- Meryl Streep "Doubt"

Best Supporting Actor

- Heath Ledger "The Dark Knight"

Best Supporting Actress

- Viola Davis "Doubt"
(but Kate Winslet should be HERE for The Reader)

Best Director

- Danny Boyle "Slumdog Millionaire

Best Adapted Screenplay

- Simon Beaufoy "Slumdog Millionaire"

Best Original Screenplay

- Dustin Lance Black "Milk"

Best Animated Feature

- Wall-E

Best Visual Effects

- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button

Best Art Direction

- The Dark Knight

Best Cinematography

- The Dark Knight

Best Sound Mixing

- The Dark Knight

Best Sound Editing

- The Dark Knight

Best Original Score

- WALL-E

Best Original Song

- Down To Earth "WALL-E"

Best Foreign Feature

- Waltz With Bashir

Best Costumes

- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button

Best Film Editing

- The Dark Knight

Best Make-Up

- The Dark Knight (since Button is more CGI)
snoopmish | Jan 30, 2009

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Best Picture

- Milk

Best Actor

- Sean Penn "Milk"

Best Actress

- Angelina Jolie "Changeling

Best Supporting Actor

- Heath Ledger "The Dark Knight"

Best Supporting Actress

- Viola Davis "Doubt"

Best Director

- David Fincher "The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button"

Best Adapted Screenplay

- John Patrick Shanley "Doubt"

Best Original Screenplay

- Dustin Lance Black "Milk"

Best Animated Feature

- Wall-E

Best Visual Effects

- The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button

Best Art Direction

- Changeling

Best Cinematography

- Changeling

Best Sound Mixing

- Wanted

Best Sound Editing

- Wanted

Best Original Score

- Slumdog Millionaire

Best Original Song

- Down To Earth "WALL-E

Best Foreign Feature

- Waltz With Bashir

Best Costumes

- The Duchess

Best Film Editing

- The Dark Knight

Best Make-Up

- The Dark Knight
Scar Jokes | Jan 30, 2009

Baader Meinhof Complex, The (2008) IMDB rating: 7.40 Plot: Germany in the 1970s: Murderous bomb attacks, the threat of terrorism and the fear of the enemy inside are rocking the very foundations of the yet fragile German democracy. The radicalised children of the Nazi generation lead by Andreas Baader, Ulrike Meinhof and Gudrun Ensslin are fighting a violent war against what they perceive as the new face of fascism: American imperialism supported by the German establishment, many of whom have a Nazi past. Their aim is to create a more human society but by employing inhuman means they not only spread terror and bloodshed, they also lose their own humanity. The man who understands them is also their hunter: the head of the German police force Horst Herold. And while he succeeds in his relentless pursuit of the young terrorists, he knows he’s only dealing with the tip of the iceberg.

Online Movies World

Actors: Bleibtreu Moritz,Liefers Jan Josef,Erceg Stipe,Schmidt Niels-Bruno,Kiefer Vinzenz,Licht Simon,Schilling Tom,Lommatzsch Daniel,Blomberg Sebastian,Dilssner Eckhard,Action,Biography,Crime,Drama,History,

When will the German film "The Baader Meinhof Complex" be released in the United States?
thanks

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I would go to the film’s website and look for the release schedule. It is playing in the San Francisco area right now. It probably won’t go into wide release. If you live in or near a large city then it will probably come to your area soon.

Ranger4402 | Sep 17, 2009

Streets of Blood (2009) IMDB rating: 0.00 Plot: A police officer’s partner has died during Hurricane Katrina, but he later discovers that his partner may have been murdered. An investigation follows, taking the officer and his new partner into the depths of the criminal underworld.

Actors: Kilmer Val,50 Cent,Andriole David,Biehn Michael,Browne Edrick,Byrnes Michael,Cantillo Jose Pablo,Chertkoev Gocha,Cummings Kip,Dainty Jon,Dos Santos Dino,Ferguson Ted,Foppe Zacharias,Granstaff Brett,Action,Drama,Drama,Thriller,

How do i deal with this? It's so hard….I can't take it ?
My best friend died 4 years ago,And i can never stop thinking about him..EVER.I live in the same town he used to live in 4 years ago,He died in a car accident..He died an hour from where i live,His cross is so beautiful,But when my mom drives me pass it,I cry and look out the window..It hurts so much,I remember he came in our house one time 4-5 years ago. {Can’t remember}..He came in the front door,And we kept looking at eachother. LOL. And he touched the door knob,{We still have the door,I’m sure it’s the same one,It was a long time ago…} Earlier this morning,{I haven’t slept because i’m thinking about him,And it hurts…SO BAD!!!} I held onto the doorknob,And i didn’t want to let go,I still want to go over to it and hold onto it. It’s like i’m holding his hand,Because i’m touching the same doorknob he did..But then i heard this angry,yelling voice in my head saying:"Let go!" "Let go of the doorknob!" This may sound stupid,But i don’t know if that was him yelling,But i doubt it…Not like he would sound. And so i finally let go…I doubt it was god too,He wouldn’t yell at me to let go. Even the first time the voice said it,He was yelling. Unless,He was whispering at first. I heard this male angry voice in my head,And i don’t know what it was. {LOL,I’m not crazy!} I have a rock from his grave,I have 27 pics of him on my ipod,I have his favorite song on my ipod,I go to his myspace sometimes..I want to die so bad,So i can be with him..I talk to him and write him letters,I hope he’s listening….His name was Zach. He died way too early,He was just 18 years old. He wanted a wife and family..And his dreams were all cut short. He said he wanted to die with people he loved…Every time i close my eyes,I see pictures of him,I see his cross,I see his grave,I want to go to his grave SO very bad,But i don’t have my liscense yet…My mother never takes me. I would ask my aunt but she never stays there,She’ll stay for at least 5 seconds…And then leave,And it’s snowing outside,{Well,Not anymore,BUT THERE’S STILL TONS OF SNOW ON THE YARD AND BARELY ANY ON THE STREETS!} How or should i ask my aunt if she can take me for awhile? I want to give her a hint that i don’t just want to drive there,I want to sit there for awhile. I never want to leave the cemetary..I want to sit out there by his grave. I’m crying and shaking and my fingers are freezing,I just want to be with him..I miss the hell out of him,I read his comments on myspace,Just wanting to wirte him one of my own,But his family has him added onto his myspace,And they don’t know me,So i’m afraid to write him a visible comment. I’ve been talking to him,Praying,Writing him letters,And looking at his photos on myspace and my ipod. I asked him numerous times to come to me in a dream..But,He hasn’t YET,Why not? Did i do or say anything wrong? Does he not like me? I’ve had dreams OF him,But he’s never came to me and talked to me. I can’t remember his voice..I don’t know why..But i know i’ll never stop loving,or remembering him. I don’t have the longest list of memories with and or of him..But,I still love him to death like my own brother. He’s my brother in all ways of blood,And i think of him as my own brother,I have a family of all girls..And he’s my best friend for life,My brother for life..My hero for life,If he wasn’t in my life,I literally don’t know what i’d be doing..For one,If he wasn’t in my life AT ALL,If i never knew him,looked him up,or knew him himself..I’d probably be out having sex,{I’m finally 16 years old and luckily a virgin..} Drinking,Partying,Doing everything wrong..But he’s here for me..I think. I don’t know if he’s protecting me..But i…Think he is..
How do i cheer up? Why hasn’t he come to me in a dream? When do you think he will? I’m ready,I’ve been ready and waiting..I’m impatient,But,Sometimes..I can and WILL be patient for him. I’d do anything for him..Literally. No matter what…How do i ask my aunt the right way,If i myself,Alone,{She’ll never let me..} be out in the cemetary,And sit out there? Or at least ask her if me and her can go to the cemetary today? I need to go..I want to go. But i want to be alone,I wished i could take a cell phone with me,And call her when i’m ready for her to come and get me…What do i do? Help me?
Zach is my life,I love him more than anything,Besides God…But,I would die for him,Even though me and his family aren’t the closest..Gosh i miss him.